MAS de lo mismo (MORE about the same)

While most part of my country still is under water... yesterday we had another TERRIFIC day in La Paz.

Again and because there is no will to argue or discuss future laws, dictatorial wanna be president Evo Morales called again (payed again) a bunch of peole to block the entry of other congress members. So once more, 3 laws were approved with out the weak opposition we have.

And while in Belgium they were happy to have him as a guest and cheering his policy of "change", people still suffered and suffers in all flooded areas. Such a nice "change"...

....where is my ticket out of this circus!?

Dance...until u forget and drop almost dead!

Saturday night. After the rain, and almost falling sleep at the movie France Nouvelle we are still awake. Looking for some entertainment we head once more to Orange club.

We are no longer beer girls, we order juice or more elaborated drinks. After waiting some minutes we conect to the electronic part of Orange. It's funny to see that some people in this country still doesn't get the whole idea of this kind of music. So for a while we are surrounded with lots of Orcs.

But then, the DJ decides it's time for some drum n' Base. That's what we needed...full energy to scare newbies. Now the place belongs only to crazy minds who dance or move to the strange sound of trival, drumbs and speed. Mavirus is there too, and after laughing about our luck with love...we keep on the speed.

By the end of the night...we are completly tired. I am ready to sleep like a baby and happy to feel so tired.

After all I had thirst of some fun...and before that I was thirsty of love. There is a big difference between love and passion. Next time I know that passion won't bring me any good...passion won't fight or endure. Love is what keeps me alive, strong to fight and search my days with happiness. Time to face one more week!!

Symphony

I don't know what I'm supposed to say
When now suddenly you feel so far away
And you're not prepared to talk
And if you're now afraid to listen
Then I don't want to do this anymore

Oh I don't know which way that I should turn
Seems the more we love
The more we have to learn
And I keep staring into space
Like it somehow has the answer
So don't let the music end
Oh my darling

Symphony
It's gone quiet around us now
How I wish you would hold me
And that you never told me
That it's better if you leave
Look at the sun
We're starting to lose all of the light
Where we once burnt so brightly
Tell me we might be
Throwing it away

Well you don't know what you've got
Until it's gone
But then nothing ever hurt like holding on
I am scared and unprepared
And I feel like I am falling
So can you tell me
Where did we go wrong?

If everything is broken
Then it's better that we give up
And remember how we once had
Something beautiful!!!

Symphony
It's gone quiet around us now
How I wish you would hold me
And that you never told me
That it's better if you leave
Look at the sun
We're starting to lose all of the light
Where we once burnt so brightly
Tell me we might be Throwing it away

Had to be Sarah Brightman...whos music could chear me up so much like hers? and this song ... express exactly the way I was feeling...But her Canto della terra with Bocelli is the way I'm starting to feel.

Facts ...

Fact: years give you experience and the strength to fight. I was thinking about different persons who are near me. Not necesarly only friends...and yes, I've found that more than one has deeper problems or situations than mine..

Fact: most people in this world live without God, or even if they believe in Him...they tend to ignore Him. My years in this earth have showed me that He is actually the only one who's been there ALL the time...night or day, good or bad moments...ALWAYS. Why keep sad or afraid if He is around?

Fact: Certain things are easier to deal with when you have near the ones that truly love you. Parents, friends and family are near now. Most of their words are true, and their hugs, supporting words and time is the best help. Could I have ever asked for more?

Fact: only after the rain, sun will shine brighter than ever. Some say it's the yin/yan thing. For me is just a matter of life. We learn to deal with bad moments, take the best from them and just keep on our way. After all, life is made of good and bad moments. In the end....I'm still alive, and lately I've started to laugh again. New projects and dreams are born in my mind, and after all, standing again is not that hard when you are certain that your values, characteristics and all that make you who you are ....are valuable for more than one person.

Digna, fiel, amante, sincera, respetuosa, bondadosa, luchadora....empiezo a descubrir mas virtudes que defectos, no como cuando era joven y veia mas defectos en mi. O sera que empiezo aceptar mis defectos como parte de mi ser...y por eso ya no se ven tan mal?

Gracias Santa Teresa de Avila...porque sintentizaste en esta oracion mas de lo que pudiera expresar:
"Nada te turbe, nada te espante.
Todo se pasa. Dios no se muda.
La paciencia todo lo alcanza.
Quien a Dios tiene, nada le falta.
Sólo Dios basta."

Gone with the wind...

Most things in this life will always have an end. After all, that's life. A collection of moments. They say that some times love is forever. So far I only believe that God's love is the only thing granted to be for ever. Other things...will fade, die, end...etc.

It's hard to accept that there is a certain feeling, but because a large number of reasons, that feeling can't be expressed anymore. But it's true and again I should be aware that a younger person can't be certain about what he expresses or proposses. Only years in this life, are the thing that give us reasons to take life serious and make decisions considering many factors. I was ready...I am ready, and because this time also didn't work out, doesn't mean I quit.

I got something greater than anything inside me...and that's the main reason why I still can stand, smile and keep on walking.... Alone and kicking!

Flood and no water!

After so many rainy days, we have had almost 5 days without big storms. Funny that we had these days after NK was here. Wish they could have been better while we were going around Bolivia.

Now comes the time to learn how to be 10 times more patient. Despite all, I have had 15 wonderful days with NK. Maybe I haven't search a time to have a real talk, but at least I did manage to forget for a few days about questions, doubts, future and just enjoy the present.

Present...that's what I have to keep doing, just focus on what is here and now. I'm still waiting for 1 key thing in my life and after that I hope the path will be more clear.

Irony is around my house. While there is lots of rain in my country, we don't have water at home...that means to live like in the old times, and shower does get complicated. So far I'm bothering my relatives. This week is also the real begining of my project...at some point I had to started it. Now is a good time.

Until La Niña leaves us...I'll consider going to Cochabamba and live there a couple of weeks. Adeu!