Pasties and memories

After taking some breath and recover from that awful night we spend on Stansted... I´m thinking clear what had happened. Yesterday I tasted one chicken something Pasty. Turns out that this things are nothing but a big Tucumana with the look of a Saltenia! and a bit bigger. BIG DEAL! How I wish I could have just one Saltenia...after all those I have eat at CEBEM heheheh. (I almost got tired of them).

I was watching too some small videos I made. Still remember the weeding crazyness at Waterloo Station. I hope someday I´ll get invited to one of those fashion weedings hahaha. Even though it was just a day and a half, we did get to see a lot Gix!

Now I better run home, since yesterday, wind has been running like mad here in Eberswalde. And since I have to walk by the woods...I don´t want any branch to hit me. Just one 1/2 day to hug my chiquitito bonito!! :)

London is over!

After one day and a half, this objective is history now. We took the most common tour with Gisell, visiting the must sees in London.

Our first day we had our first schock! there are no inglish persons in London jajaja. 2) the underground is way confussing with all those wrong signs and those lines that split in 2 or 3. Any way, we were walking the whole afternoon, a bit zombi a bit tired. At night we had the chance to see the Big Ben with lights. It's totally impressive that house of parliment.

Saturday we took the boat tur, and then visited the bridge, the tower of London, Saint Paul, and some small places here and there. We used the london pass for one day, which is good, but u have to consider to visit Saint Paul for instance during the morning. Carrying our own food was after all a good idea, so we get to spend very few on this matter. To buy also the transport day card is a good option. You can choose to buy just the bus card or the whole system card. The problem with the buses...STAU! there is a lot of trafic so u might take a while to arrive where ever u want.

The worst? to sleep in Stansted...the worst. Ryan air and all those cheapy airliens could offer more sits or even rent sleeping bags jajajja. We slept inside a photo-cabine. Totally unglaublig! so next time...hope to have a decent job which will allow me to pay 2 nights of good sleeping. Now to run and end my bulletin....

Little Stones at My Window

Once in a while
joy throws little stones at my window
it wants to let me know that it's waiting for me
but today I'm calm
I'd almost say even-tempered
I'm going to keep anxiety locked up
and then lie flat on my back
which is an elegant and comfortable position
for receiving and believing news

who knows where I'll be next
or when my story will be taken into account
who knows what advice I still might come up with
and what easy way out I'll take not to follow it

don't worry, I won't gamble with an eviction
I won't tattoo remembering with forgetting
there are many things left to say and suppress
and many grapes left to fill our mouths

don't worry NK, I'm convinced
joy doesn't need to throw any more little stones
I'm coming
I'm coming.

Mario Benedetti

True blue...

I've heard all the lines
I've cried oh so many times
Those tear drops they won't fall again
I'm so excited 'cause you're my best friend
So if you should ever doubt
Wonder what love is all about
Just think back and remember dear
Those words whispered in your ear, I said

True love
You're the one I'm dreaming of
Your heart fits me like a glove
And I'm gonna be true blue baby I love you

No more sadness, I kiss it good-bye
The sun is bursting right out of the sky
I searched the whole world for someone like you
Don't you know, don't you know that it's....

As I heard this old Madonna's song...many things come to my mind... there are times we fight so hard to find this person...and when it knocks our door...we are so scared to open it, that we might loose the chance to discover true love...

Our time is running out...

So weekend is over...too much colors, sounds and time went flying. Another week begings, the rain hasn't stop and I'm in the middle of an emotion roller coaster.

This is Natalia, friend of Norbu who came to visit him in her 1 month trip around europe....My respects, for she is carrying a suitcase around these crazy cities. With Jackie and Will, we went to Neustadtfest in Dresden. One more of those "good reasons" germans find to drink and eat in the street. We stopped in one street were the music was good enough to put us dancing. After some screams, beers and the headaches showing up, it was time to go home...swimming??????? Like never before, the storm that night was so strong that we arrived completly WET. Good thing is not cold.

Saturday the show began quite early. Sometimes I think if I ever get married...I don't wanto so much. I stick to the idea of getting married with my man and ... keep it very simple. I remember Jani and Sharbel weeding...yeah, nice, simple and only with those who care about your union. Nevertheless...Sandra and Lutz got married after being 10 years together.

I kinda admire her for enduring so much. Of course they had 2 kids meanwhile...but I guess u need to build really good the relation, in order not to care or not about being married. No matter...I was raised in a different way, and despite marriage seems such a hard and complicated thing...I still have faith in that way of living.

There was a lot of food...drinks. Late we started to dance...so different from Bolivia or Mexico. NK was racing with his boy .... boys! Of course he ended drunk and funny. I wonder if he remembers all the things he told me before falling sleep???

Today coming back to Eberswalde...took longer than what I thought. I forgot too that falling in love is also somehow painfull. Sometimes there is so much to say and few time...and now i need a bit of time to talk, to have clear things in my head, more now, that we are close to be appart.

I hate the fact that previous moments in my life conducted me to this state of "non trust". I only hope this is the begining of the cure. My mind and heart need it.

And before jumping to bed...I declare I'm the happy owner of the RED AMPELMANN!! :) who's got the green?????

Priorities

Maybe I was raised in such a different society, that now I´m having big problems trying to understand what for others is totally common or even modern.

When it comes to a couple relationship, how important is the other one?. Is he/she important only when they are together? Is he/she important only certain moments. Or is this "special" person really important at all times.

Maybe I´ve been doing wrong (for these ppl), but always that I´m involved in a realtionship, my partner becomes priority 1, and even though some friends have told me I should be carefull paying so much attetion to my couple...I don´t regreet it. And those real friends could always understand when I was not available. These same friends were always there to support me when I need it or to share those magic moments.

That´s something scary about couple relationships...u may end that relation, but I´m glad I will always have my friends despite all. U can´t break up with them, not with the good ones. I´ve had a hard night, thinking if I was over reacting or not in this matter.

I´ve done what helps me when I´m not sure....speak. Lucky me I found 3 of my best friends on line. I know there is a bias on their opinion heheh, they are my friends. However... at least I know I´m not crazy to feel confussed and even a bit sad when my partner is putting more effort on spending time with a friend. Their good advice is taken... clear points in a conversation.

...maybe this situation had to happen so I can learn what are his priorities in terms of relationships. Still, I need to go take a walk and search for time...to talk.

Gray hours...1 month is gone

It´s one of those tasteless gray days... I don´t know why a gray day in this city turns me down completly or at least in a big part.

I have slept only 6 hours. Yesterday had another round of chat with Veronica, the other bolivian girl who just arrived. Sometimes it is so good to hear and exchange some opinions with a thinking person. Even more when I´m aware sometimes that after June, I´ll spend more time here...and if it´s not work, my lazy hours will be spent thinking nonsense things about life and future.

Today I was searching for a MAJOR, MAJESTIC approval of a step we decided to take 30 days ago with Norbu. Of course I´m tired of asking this BIG approval signs, but I needed to take it all outside. Good thing HE is capable to accept my crazy moments. I´m expecting to discover more 30 days x n^n... and I hope they will be always opportunities to learn, grow up and build something solid.

I´m looking forward to start my work, but I need schedule...with out it, I´m afraid I could loose easy my hours trying to define if the orange is orange ´cos the color or ´cos the idea itself. Hope that before July I will have my days marked, so I can really plan to visit Dave and my sweet Valentine. Other than that...I´m just hoping that some day Murph will understand and accept. Adeu

Do u want to be with me?

Hay tanto que quiero contarte, hay tanto que quiero saber de ti....Yo tambien tengo secretos para darte, y que sepas no me sirven mas....Hay tantos caminos para andar....Dime si quisieras andar conmigo, cuentame si tu quisieras andar conmigo. Ohhh. Estoy ansiosa por soltarlo todo, desde el principio hasta el dia de hoy!!! (Julieta Venegas)

Finally, after so much time trying it, we made it...!! a whole in-productive day!!! :) Last sunday after 7 months of being always up and down I slept like 10 hours or more. I'm starting to belive that Norbu has a sleepy effect :P.

Friday we had this BBQ with bolivians and those who addopted Bolivia as a 2nd or 3rd country. It's amazing that in my little city Eberswalde there are so many people related to Bolivia. Saturday we visited Kloster Chorin for a concert of some of Mozart's compositions. This Monastery was build around 1258 (the construction began). The sound is great, next time if I have a chance I know I don't have to pay the entrance ticket to hear the concert.

Yesterday I've tried with some help my first bike lesson. It's gonna take a while before I totally get rid of my fear to trust in 2 wheels. Sunny and very warm weekend...Good it's already night and fresh.

The question of this day....has been answered a while ago, but just heard again that good song. Alas, bis morgen!!

Happy Day !

One more year to celebrate the environment day, and this year the topic is focused on Melting ice. While I´m not enjoying at all t his rainy days in what was supposed to be a warm season in Germany, the cold winter has arrived early to my country with this ugly humid cold.

I better get ready for next glaciar age...´cos now I do belive it´s going to happen !!!

But on this side of the world...even though there are protest against the G8 meeting and all it´s crayz ideas, they keep on consumming lots of paper, plastic and cutting more and more woods. I will start to help a bit in this project of Protected Areas and Climate Change here in Germany. But some times I´m quite confussed on how u are supposed to propose nature corridors...when everywhere u go there are cities, towns, roads and roads...and no body seems to care ´cos first comes economic development. I hope I can achieve something that would help to produce in the end a strong recomendation of this race with no end to destroy our home (planet Earth). Paradox no?, we have more water than earth... nevertheless... happy day and all the energy to those who work and fight for our nature.!

Times goes by...

The weekend went good in the middle of Thuringen with a seminar about ecoturism in this national park Hainich. IT was my second time here and I still think there is no point on trying to bring so much tourist to the area that you are supposed to take good care. Anyway, we had good meals, got times to talk with Sara, got to meet Maia and Liberty and spend time with Norbu.

It´s almost a month since we found us eachother again, and this weekend was full of new moments including my overreaction over a missunderstanding. Yes, u´ll have to be patience for a while more untill we get to know how we react to certain moments. However I´m completly thrilled with the new step u gave with me. Thanks

The good part was the trip through Werra (a bit stinky though). But all of these high emotions left me today KAPUTT! I´d love to just stay in bed, reading Oswar Wilde and with a hot cup of chocolate or tee.